"I don't see you as ever being a mom."
This sentence was said to me several years ago when Andy and I first started trying to have a family. Yes, someone truly said that to me. At that time, we hadn't shared we were trying to have kids with anyone. In fact, after that sentence, I never really shared with anyone other than close family and a friend that we were trying to conceive. I decided to keep our hopes for a family private and later our struggles and decision to adopt even more private. I could go on and on about why I believe this person made this comment. I don't believe it had anything to do with me, but everything to do with the person making it. Needless to say, it affected how I would share information.
Today, I have been open about how we became Oliver's parents. It's therapeutic, awkward, yet something I want Oliver to know about when he is older. Andy and I talk about how lucky we are to have him every single day. Every smile, every snuggle, every feeding, every diaper change...we love it all. Our journey was our journey, and it was perfect. I rewrite it at all.
As for that comment, it has been running in the back of my head lately. Every time I think of it, I smile. I smile because I am a mom. I smile because my life is what it is meant to be. I smile because I am happy with the life I have. I smile because I know people are genuinely happy for us and support us (except maybe this person). I smile because I love my son more than anything in this world and I'm pretty sure he loves me.
I am a mom and will be the best mom I can for Oliver.
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